it's only been a little over 3 years

my husband and i have come to the realization that the boys are needing us less and less. i know what you're thinking...they are still babies, but when you think of how much babies grow in a matter of 3 years it's crazy. i was looking through old videos of the boys when they were infants and my mouth just dropped open. the other thing that's amazing is how well my husband and i were able to roll with the punches.

we literally can't remember our home before they were born. it's almost like we did nothing until they were born. we bought a house, painted it, furnished it and then waited. well at least that's what i can remember! ha!

it's just that they are so independent now from getting up and storming in my room to say, "mom, wake up, the sun is up, wake up mama" to being able to remind me about my bag when i forget it in the morning on out way to the car. when i am about to shut the garage door, maverick says, "mama, your backpack, it's in the house on the couch...i'll get it!" it's moments like these that make me realize how big they are.

this morning was great. i got up took and shower while everyone slept. when i stepped out of the bathroom, the boys greeted me with a sad "you-have-to-go-to-work" face. i explained that i did have to go to work but that dad was staying home with them today. they both smiled and jumped on my bed with my still sleeping husband in it. as he got up to get them a morning snack and i got dressed they quietly watched cartoons. when i came back in the room to say good-bye. i leaned in to give maverick a kiss and he whispered, "mama i love you over the rainbow." i looked at his face and his eyes told me he meant it. I then leaned over to joaquin and he whispered, "mom, i love your guts with all my heart" i looked at his little crooked smile and could tell he meant it too. as i walked through the kitchen to the front door my husband smiles as kisses me.

i walked out to my jeep and wondered to myself when did all this happen. it's wonderful feeling to know the people you love, love you back in their own special way.